RITE OF RECONCILIATION

I had the opportunity to go to another Rite of Reconciliation at church today. This was the second one that I had gone to, and like the other one (which was during the Advent season), I felt a sense of humilty. However, unlike the Advent Rite, I was also thinking that the time is nearly here for me to actually do my first confession. (Catechumen don't have to do the confession before confirmation because their baptism washes away the sin. I on the other hand, am baptized and are therefore a Candidate. We DO have to do that confession before our confirmation!) Needless to say, I feel a twinge of anxiety at the prospect of airing my dirty spiritual laundry. One of our priests is going to lead our class next week through the Rite of Reconciliation/Confession, and I am really looking forward to that. Maybe some of the fears can be put aside after that.

Earlier in the day, we had a great homily. It was about letting go--of fears, dreams, plans, whatever, and giving them back to God. This really struck me to the core. Coming into the Church has been like that. Of course, I have other issues that I could/should/need to let go of, but I'm finding it extremely difficult to do so. My prayer is that God will give me the strength to "let Him have it" so I can move on. The thing is, once they go to God, we have to make sure we don't take them back. I guess it's really a matter of faith--do we, or can we trust Him with those things which are most precious to us?